Hieeee ! Welcome to new post serie "Give me a break" where I will be writing about different topics that piss me off or they just tickle my funny bone. For the first post I decided to write about little topis "Not being good enough". This is not about my private life, but my internet image and position.
First things first this is not the post where I will be talking about my readers and people who I love, but about me and those who don't support my work. I've been in this blogger / instagram game for a minute and I'm so pissed that somebody needs to give me a break. I don't know what to do anymore. I know I'm nobody in this blogger world but when I see some people getting such a good feedback for nothing, it pisses me off. I'm not talking about people who work their booties off but about those who have that something something. I'm aware of buying followers but what is too much is too much. I feel like I tried everything to become somebody in "Blogger's world" but nothing special is happening. Is it me, is it my writing, editing skills, my look, I seriously don't know anymore. I feel stuck in this one place and I'm not growing as a blogger. I deleted most of my instagram photos (about 500) and I'm starting fresh with my instagram. I will try to be more professional and to have better content but that doesn't have any effect as I can see. There are so many accounts with "not so good" content and they are becoming celebrities with thousands of followers and people just adore them. Ok they have look about them or something that is just bringing people to them. I don't know if any of you had this problem but I feel like a total loser. Don't think I'm ungrateful for all of you guys but if I don't go to other blogs and tell them I did something nobody would know. Also, I know blogging is not easy, I'm aware of that but since I made my most precious thing, my blog I didn't get new followers, I lost a lot of them. I'll give myself a break and I won't explain myself anymore with these I know that, I know this. Let's be real, to be somebody in this virtual world you need numbers ( most of companies talk to you only if you have at least 5 k followers). I don't need followers to feel good about myself (it is nice but it's not what I dream of) but I can't grow as a blogger without them. I really want to do even more collaborations with companies, I would love to present more companies to you and my biggest dream is to be invited to fashion shows ( to start with Croatian fashion week ). What really brings me down is talking to companies. Everything goes so well and then they ask me for my links and our conversation usually goes like this : "Please contact us in few months... We are no longer interested ... You can try with free post ... Your social medias don't have a great traffic". And it kills me, because I want this so bad. I want to be next big thing in blogger's world.
I hope you guys understand what I'm trying to tell you. If I look like a brat now, I really don't know what to say. This is my passion, this is my calling and I want to show everybody what I can really do.